Monthly Archives: July 2019

The tide is turning.

There’s a part inside me that I’ve nicknamed little demon. For the most part, she stays inside and quiet. Sometimes she comes out… sometimes I let her. A week ago today, I decided it would be fun times to check … Continue reading

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The farm house.

It was September 2013 when I saw it for the first time. The house cannot be seen from the road, so as we pull into the driveway, I’m anxiously waiting for the house to come into view. We pass a … Continue reading

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Summer

It’s been a jam packed summer so far. I don’t feel like I really stop. That’s good though. I like to keep busy. The house has also been packed, which is an odd feeling. The past three years the kids … Continue reading

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I wonder sometimes..

I’m not sure why this is on my mind. Maybe it’s guilt. Maybe it’s a small glimmer…small I say…of understanding? I don’t know. It was that New Year’s Eve, bringing in 2016 sitting in a hotel room on the beach … Continue reading

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Anxious tonight

Anxious tonight. Not sure why. Probably because he and I are getting nowhere. I’m not usually like this, I want to fix everything and have everyone around me happy. But I’m holding strong this time. I’m playing no games, I’m … Continue reading

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I just don’t.

I just don’t have much to say to him. He uses the silent treatment on me, which I hate. I’m not doing that to him, I answer him and go about my life. But I’m making no effort to speak … Continue reading

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Have you thought about it?

We had a nice weekend. We are looking at land to buy to build a small weekend cabin on. We took a trip yesterday to look at a few. West Virginia. It was a perfect ride out and two of … Continue reading

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