Monthly Archives: September 2021

A feather

My sister keeps telling me she feels our dad around her all the time. At the service, her and I were sitting next to each other and she told me she could feel him behind us with his arms around … Continue reading

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I wonder why I called…

It is my mother’s birthday today. I broke down and called her. This could be some guilt happening due to my fathers actions. But in the end, I cried. She had a massive stroke a few years ago. She doesn’t … Continue reading

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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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Reactions around me

The awkward vibe coming off of people is, well, I guess awkward for both of us. Them and me. It started at the police station. This is a small town, a small Bible Belt town. Everyone… and I mean everyone, … Continue reading

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