Category Archives: affair

I often think…

…What if he had chosen her? Sometimes I find myself daydreaming. I know many that I follow are in that boat. Their partner left for the other person. The side piece. The homewrecker. But that is not my story. Mine … Continue reading

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The whole thing was wrong.

I chose to ignore her letter. It’s just wrong. No matter who she is to me, how I feel about her, what happened the last time she reached out is still there. Though, I get it. Also, I know that … Continue reading

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Stupid condoms. ūü§¨

I clearly seem to have lost complete control over myself at this point. I’m not thinking, I’m not thinking past doing dumb shit and knowing there will be consequences. Maybe it’s mercury retrograde. Maybe it is. Maybe I’m insane. Maybe … Continue reading

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Fantasy.

I’ve never done this. It’s never crossed my mind. Not once in 30 years together. I was working on my chicken coop yesterday, it was just me, the chickens and some woodland critters. No headphones in, no music, just me … Continue reading

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Facebook memories

I look at them. For me, I had to stop the memories for a while, but I’ve turned them back on. I face them head on now and own the fact that I pretty much post for the memories. It’s … Continue reading

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Quiet.

I feel like I’ve stepped back in my life. That probably doesn’t make sense… how do I describe it… more like I’ve stepped backwards, or to the side and am just observing. I got some satisfying revenge on the OW … Continue reading

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He wrote a song for her.

I needed to find something in his studio. There was a stack of notebooks I was looking for and one in particular I needed. I wasn’t affair digging, I also don’t know why I feel guilty and feel the need … Continue reading

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Smoky mountains and the OW.

I went to see my Dad. I have not seen him in 2 1/2 years. I love being home, but I struggle being near him and in all honesty, I may share DNA with him, but he and I do … Continue reading

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Random thoughts.

I think I’ve given up on the notebook. The whole thing pisses me off. I have no respect for him any longer. I could have… I truly think I could have had he been honest and open from the start. … Continue reading

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Christmas.

Trigger season is upon me. Yay. It actually pisses me off. I’m done with this. So today is the date he walked out and left us. Just scooted on by with his laundry baskets filled and left me on the … Continue reading

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