Category Archives: cognitive dissonance

Stupid condoms. ūü§¨

I clearly seem to have lost complete control over myself at this point. I’m not thinking, I’m not thinking past doing dumb shit and knowing there will be consequences. Maybe it’s mercury retrograde. Maybe it is. Maybe I’m insane. Maybe … Continue reading

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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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I scrolled waaay back…

I’ve been here and on twitter for 4 years now. I wrote my first entry and created my twitter account on the same day. I was nervous hitting “publish” and I was nervous going on twitter anonymously. I have been … Continue reading

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Did not have my consent.

I was scrolling through My twitter feed a few weeks ago. I can’t find the tweet now, as I wanted her permission to repost it here, I also wanted to retweet it, but I don’t follow her and twitters algorithm … Continue reading

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I don‚Äôt even know what to title this.

A quote I saw caused a pretty fierce face palm this past weekend. A jaw drop, a wide eyed gasp and a face palm that was a bit harder than it should’ve been. I did. I read it again. Then … Continue reading

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I went down activity lane

April 24th will be four years since discovering he had an affair. So I’m quickly approaching that mark. I don’t know. In those four years there’s been 4 therapists, a thousand books, articles, videos all laying down the 3-5 year … Continue reading

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My trip.

I packed and left Sunday at 9am. When he and I said goodbye, I cried. Sadly, it wasn’t for missing him, it was in the fear he would go to her. But I left anyway. I can’t live like that … Continue reading

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The beginning. Who did you tell?

When I found out dumpster girl existed, I told a lot of people. I’m not sure why. Not to shame him. Not for sympathy. For no reason I think other than, I was fucked up and explaining why to people … Continue reading

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BBQ, ghosts, flowers and muscle cars.

I love this time of year. The winter was long, it’s nice to feel the sun and warm days and the end of a long hibernation. Do you believe in ghosts? I live in a 170+ year old farm house. … Continue reading

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Cognitive Dissonance

Interesting. So, I¬† began this blog and my twitter (Me on Twitter) on the same day.¬† This June will be two years. God, what a journey!¬† I’m still on it.¬† But I can’t say enough about the ‘friends’ I have … Continue reading

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