Category Archives: discovery day

I often think…

…What if he had chosen her? Sometimes I find myself daydreaming. I know many that I follow are in that boat. Their partner left for the other person. The side piece. The homewrecker. But that is not my story. Mine … Continue reading

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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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Quiet.

I feel like I’ve stepped back in my life. That probably doesn’t make sense… how do I describe it… more like I’ve stepped backwards, or to the side and am just observing. I got some satisfying revenge on the OW … Continue reading

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All over the place.

Yeah, my head is all over the place. I hate Valentine’s Day. Hate it even more now. One of the questions I asked him recently, only in the book, was about Valentine’s Day. I’ve asked many times. He admitted at … Continue reading

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Apology – my rant

I think I figured out how to repost… I’ve never done it 😬 But Tearing at the Fabric wrote a post that got me thinking as she always does 💞 I’ve thought about this a lot. I wouldn’t mind an … Continue reading

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I threw my rings.

I threw them. Like a child. Like a bratty child that wasn’t getting her way. I asked him not long after dday, “Why?” He answered, ” I was done.” I told him I didn’t know he was done. Having sex … Continue reading

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Feels like the wind got knocked out of me.

I was in fourth grade. We had just moved from Florida to Pasadena, Md. I had just started a new school. Again. I was out with some neighbor kids and we were all climbing a tree. I made it to … Continue reading

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Detaching.

It was his 50th birthday Monday. I let my walls down a little and attempted to make it a nice day for him. Honestly? More for the kids. They enjoyed celebrating their Dad and all had a nice day. Inside, … Continue reading

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I scrolled waaay back…

I’ve been here and on twitter for 4 years now. I wrote my first entry and created my twitter account on the same day. I was nervous hitting “publish” and I was nervous going on twitter anonymously. I have been … Continue reading

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Did not have my consent.

I was scrolling through My twitter feed a few weeks ago. I can’t find the tweet now, as I wanted her permission to repost it here, I also wanted to retweet it, but I don’t follow her and twitters algorithm … Continue reading

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