Category Archives: extramarital affair

I often think…

…What if he had chosen her? Sometimes I find myself daydreaming. I know many that I follow are in that boat. Their partner left for the other person. The side piece. The homewrecker. But that is not my story. Mine … Continue reading

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Stupid condoms. ūü§¨

I clearly seem to have lost complete control over myself at this point. I’m not thinking, I’m not thinking past doing dumb shit and knowing there will be consequences. Maybe it’s mercury retrograde. Maybe it is. Maybe I’m insane. Maybe … Continue reading

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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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Just introverting around.

I want to step to the side of writing about infidelity. For this entry. A comment on my last blog has me thinking and I will definitely address it and respond. I just need a minute. But for now? I’m … Continue reading

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Shattered

I read a blog post recently that was deep. Her style of writing is unique and so heartfelt you can feel it in your chest. She wrote something a few weeks ago that just left me stunned for several minutes. … Continue reading

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Look at me living and sh*t ūüėĀ

So long before shut downs and COVID, I would’ve described myself as a functioning introvert. I don’t even know if that’s a thing, but that’s what I’m going with. I am fine in public with people existing around me but … Continue reading

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Quiet.

I feel like I’ve stepped back in my life. That probably doesn’t make sense… how do I describe it… more like I’ve stepped backwards, or to the side and am just observing. I got some satisfying revenge on the OW … Continue reading

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He wrote a song for her.

I needed to find something in his studio. There was a stack of notebooks I was looking for and one in particular I needed. I wasn’t affair digging, I also don’t know why I feel guilty and feel the need … Continue reading

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Smoky mountains and the OW.

I went to see my Dad. I have not seen him in 2 1/2 years. I love being home, but I struggle being near him and in all honesty, I may share DNA with him, but he and I do … Continue reading

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Random thoughts.

I think I’ve given up on the notebook. The whole thing pisses me off. I have no respect for him any longer. I could have… I truly think I could have had he been honest and open from the start. … Continue reading

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