Category Archives: husband

Fantasy.

I’ve never done this. It’s never crossed my mind. Not once in 30 years together. I was working on my chicken coop yesterday, it was just me, the chickens and some woodland critters. No headphones in, no music, just me … Continue reading

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Quiet.

I feel like I’ve stepped back in my life. That probably doesn’t make sense… how do I describe it… more like I’ve stepped backwards, or to the side and am just observing. I got some satisfying revenge on the OW … Continue reading

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He does not know me.

Sometimes I can see forward a little clearer when I take a minute to look back. 30 years. Actually it’s more. Like 31 or 32 years. I met my husband when I was 15? Maybe 16. At the time, I … Continue reading

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What’s up?

A couple of weeks ago, I had a panic moment. Someone followed this blog that had the same name as my daughter. Or, very close. Turns out, it was not her. In my panic, I locked everything down and made … Continue reading

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Summer

It’s been a jam packed summer so far. I don’t feel like I really stop. That’s good though. I like to keep busy. The house has also been packed, which is an odd feeling. The past three years the kids … Continue reading

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HW, OW, THOT…

Pointless post this morning. Big debate going on in a group I’m in this morning on the acronyms. It is being said that we, the BS (betrayed spouse) need to stop calling the OW, OW. We need to call her … Continue reading

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I went digging. I shouldn’t have.

Or maybe I should have. Here’s the thing… we are 2.10 years out from Dday. I still do not have the whole picture. I’m still very lost. He still lies and turns it back on to me. I very much … Continue reading

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My trip.

I packed and left Sunday at 9am. When he and I said goodbye, I cried. Sadly, it wasn’t for missing him, it was in the fear he would go to her. But I left anyway. I can’t live like that … Continue reading

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Did he? Didnt he? Who cares now?

I’m obsessing over something ridiculous. Welcome to my insanity. Sometimes it’s nice here. There’s usually some nature, quiet walks, deep thinking, cake, and wonderful thoughts of punching someone in the throat. I have had a rule, so to speak, for … Continue reading

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I reach for him..

I’m just in my head today. The moment I found out he was a liar and a cheat… Dday I think I ended that post with me laying in the grass. I still remember that. I can still feel the … Continue reading

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