Category Archives: marriage

Fantasy.

I’ve never done this. It’s never crossed my mind. Not once in 30 years together. I was working on my chicken coop yesterday, it was just me, the chickens and some woodland critters. No headphones in, no music, just me … Continue reading

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He does not know me.

Sometimes I can see forward a little clearer when I take a minute to look back. 30 years. Actually it’s more. Like 31 or 32 years. I met my husband when I was 15? Maybe 16. At the time, I … Continue reading

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The “Slut” car conversation

I guess I had too much to say, or think about, to reply on Dolly’s post.  Or even a reform cad’s. Dolly: Creative Writing ARC: 138 – Slut They both then had an interesting conversation about it on twitter.  I chimed in … Continue reading

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My trip.

I packed and left Sunday at 9am. When he and I said goodbye, I cried. Sadly, it wasn’t for missing him, it was in the fear he would go to her. But I left anyway. I can’t live like that … Continue reading

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I reach for him..

I’m just in my head today. The moment I found out he was a liar and a cheat… Dday I think I ended that post with me laying in the grass. I still remember that. I can still feel the … Continue reading

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BBQ, ghosts, flowers and muscle cars.

I love this time of year. The winter was long, it’s nice to feel the sun and warm days and the end of a long hibernation. Do you believe in ghosts? I live in a 170+ year old farm house. … Continue reading

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Cognitive Dissonance

Interesting. So, I  began this blog and my twitter (Me on Twitter) on the same day.  This June will be two years. God, what a journey!  I’m still on it.  But I can’t say enough about the ‘friends’ I have … Continue reading

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Was she worth it?

I’m checking the mail yesterday.  It’s a nice distance and walk to the mailbox.   My walk takes me past a cattle barn, an old corn crib, abandoned farm equipment, another storage barn and a silo.  These buildings are on … Continue reading

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What was he doing those days after DDay?

I’m writing a post about how their affair ended.   In doing so, and as I look back on those days right after I found out the truth, some of the things he did have me shaking my head a … Continue reading

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It’s been a year

It’s been a little over a year since that night. It has not been easy.  There have been some amazing days, weeks.  There have been the lowest of the lows. There has not been a single day that I have … Continue reading

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