Category Archives: suicidal thoughts

It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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I reach for him..

I’m just in my head today. The moment I found out he was a liar and a cheat… Dday I think I ended that post with me laying in the grass. I still remember that. I can still feel the … Continue reading

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Trickle Truth HELL

Trickle truth sucks. Just tell the truth in the beginning. Continue reading

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We went south – and I got him back in the house

I told the kids to pack, we were going to go to Florida.  That’s exactly what we did. The kids were surprised, and yet seemed excited.  It was a long, long drive.  16 hours to get to where I wanted … Continue reading

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I’m so lost

He left Sunday, Dec. 20th. I picked myself up out of the driveway, and told the kids to get ready to go out, we are going for lunch. I stayed out with them as long as I could, to come … Continue reading

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