Category Archives: suicide


My dad would always send me a birthday card. It was always well thought, sweet, and I could always tell he took his time picking the perfect card. I’ve saved every single one he’s ever sent. Sometimes he would include … Continue reading

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A feather

My sister keeps telling me she feels our dad around her all the time. At the service, her and I were sitting next to each other and she told me she could feel him behind us with his arms around … Continue reading

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I wonder why I called…

It is my mother’s birthday today. I broke down and called her. This could be some guilt happening due to my fathers actions. But in the end, I cried. She had a massive stroke a few years ago. She doesn’t … Continue reading

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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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