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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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Christmas.

Trigger season is upon me. Yay. It actually pisses me off. I’m done with this. So today is the date he walked out and left us. Just scooted on by with his laundry baskets filled and left me on the … Continue reading

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Detaching.

It was his 50th birthday Monday. I let my walls down a little and attempted to make it a nice day for him. Honestly? More for the kids. They enjoyed celebrating their Dad and all had a nice day. Inside, … Continue reading

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I scrolled waaay back…

I’ve been here and on twitter for 4 years now. I wrote my first entry and created my twitter account on the same day. I was nervous hitting “publish” and I was nervous going on twitter anonymously. I have been … Continue reading

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Thoughts out of nowhere.

I’m ranting and raving here. Kind of going off the rails in my head. Oh, not really kinda. My train is completely off the rails. Hang on. I’m laying in bed last night, watching some dumb show about singers pairing … Continue reading

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Anxious tonight

Anxious tonight. Not sure why. Probably because he and I are getting nowhere. I’m not usually like this, I want to fix everything and have everyone around me happy. But I’m holding strong this time. I’m playing no games, I’m … Continue reading

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I keep digging.

Some days, I’m good. The affair crosses my mind every single day, but some days it’s easier to push away and keep moving. Other days, I get lost in the “stuck.” I’m stuck. I’m pissed off that I’m stuck. It’s … Continue reading

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What just happened?

So after I saw that text between D and my husband, we had it out that weekend. I basically let 2 1/2 years out. I took up for myself and let’s just say there were a lot of tears and … Continue reading

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My trip.

I packed and left Sunday at 9am. When he and I said goodbye, I cried. Sadly, it wasn’t for missing him, it was in the fear he would go to her. But I left anyway. I can’t live like that … Continue reading

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Trickle Truth HELL

Trickle truth sucks. Just tell the truth in the beginning. Continue reading

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