Tag Archives: homewrecker

I often think…

…What if he had chosen her? Sometimes I find myself daydreaming. I know many that I follow are in that boat. Their partner left for the other person. The side piece. The homewrecker. But that is not my story. Mine … Continue reading

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Stupid condoms. ūü§¨

I clearly seem to have lost complete control over myself at this point. I’m not thinking, I’m not thinking past doing dumb shit and knowing there will be consequences. Maybe it’s mercury retrograde. Maybe it is. Maybe I’m insane. Maybe … Continue reading

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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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All over the place.

Yeah, my head is all over the place. I hate Valentine’s Day. Hate it even more now. One of the questions I asked him recently, only in the book, was about Valentine’s Day. I’ve asked many times. He admitted at … Continue reading

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Christmas.

Trigger season is upon me. Yay. It actually pisses me off. I’m done with this. So today is the date he walked out and left us. Just scooted on by with his laundry baskets filled and left me on the … Continue reading

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Abuse

Have I written that he accuses me of being abusive? He says I am an abusive spouse. He tells me I abuse him. I know I’ve tried to write it, but not sure if I hit publish. There’s a lot … Continue reading

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Lies.

I was outside feeding my feral cat, Oscar, this morning. He’s a cutie for sure. I’ve been working on him daily since he showed up in April. He remains as feral as he can be though. He has finally allowed … Continue reading

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Apology – my rant

I think I figured out how to repost… I’ve never done it ūüė¨ But Tearing at the Fabric wrote a post that got me thinking as she always does ūüíě I’ve thought about this a lot. I wouldn’t mind an … Continue reading

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Waves.

Waves. Roller coasters. Whatever it may be, I find myself just riding it. I had to step away from social media for the last couple of weeks. I’ve had to snooze people I consider very good friends and a handful … Continue reading

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I scrolled waaay back…

I’ve been here and on twitter for 4 years now. I wrote my first entry and created my twitter account on the same day. I was nervous hitting “publish” and I was nervous going on twitter anonymously. I have been … Continue reading

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