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I often think…

…What if he had chosen her? Sometimes I find myself daydreaming. I know many that I follow are in that boat. Their partner left for the other person. The side piece. The homewrecker. But that is not my story. Mine … Continue reading

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The whole thing was wrong.

I chose to ignore her letter. It’s just wrong. No matter who she is to me, how I feel about her, what happened the last time she reached out is still there. Though, I get it. Also, I know that … Continue reading

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Life moves on.

My last post was a mess. Sorry. I won’t even go back and read it, but I think I talked about the prescribed Prozac. I started them. I think I’m on day 11 with them. I think they work. For … Continue reading

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Stupid condoms. ūü§¨

I clearly seem to have lost complete control over myself at this point. I’m not thinking, I’m not thinking past doing dumb shit and knowing there will be consequences. Maybe it’s mercury retrograde. Maybe it is. Maybe I’m insane. Maybe … Continue reading

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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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Shattered

I read a blog post recently that was deep. Her style of writing is unique and so heartfelt you can feel it in your chest. She wrote something a few weeks ago that just left me stunned for several minutes. … Continue reading

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Look at me living and sh*t ūüėĀ

So long before shut downs and COVID, I would’ve described myself as a functioning introvert. I don’t even know if that’s a thing, but that’s what I’m going with. I am fine in public with people existing around me but … Continue reading

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Fantasy.

I’ve never done this. It’s never crossed my mind. Not once in 30 years together. I was working on my chicken coop yesterday, it was just me, the chickens and some woodland critters. No headphones in, no music, just me … Continue reading

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Warmer weather, COVID and becoming more of an introvert.

A month has passed since recovering from covid. Recovering may be a strong word, as it still lingers on a bit. Fatigue mainly. I suddenly cannot keep my eyes open at times and have to sit or lay down. The … Continue reading

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Facebook memories

I look at them. For me, I had to stop the memories for a while, but I’ve turned them back on. I face them head on now and own the fact that I pretty much post for the memories. It’s … Continue reading

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