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I often think…

…What if he had chosen her? Sometimes I find myself daydreaming. I know many that I follow are in that boat. Their partner left for the other person. The side piece. The homewrecker. But that is not my story. Mine … Continue reading

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Stupid condoms. ūü§¨

I clearly seem to have lost complete control over myself at this point. I’m not thinking, I’m not thinking past doing dumb shit and knowing there will be consequences. Maybe it’s mercury retrograde. Maybe it is. Maybe I’m insane. Maybe … Continue reading

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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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Fantasy.

I’ve never done this. It’s never crossed my mind. Not once in 30 years together. I was working on my chicken coop yesterday, it was just me, the chickens and some woodland critters. No headphones in, no music, just me … Continue reading

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Facebook memories

I look at them. For me, I had to stop the memories for a while, but I’ve turned them back on. I face them head on now and own the fact that I pretty much post for the memories. It’s … Continue reading

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Quiet.

I feel like I’ve stepped back in my life. That probably doesn’t make sense… how do I describe it… more like I’ve stepped backwards, or to the side and am just observing. I got some satisfying revenge on the OW … Continue reading

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All over the place.

Yeah, my head is all over the place. I hate Valentine’s Day. Hate it even more now. One of the questions I asked him recently, only in the book, was about Valentine’s Day. I’ve asked many times. He admitted at … Continue reading

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Abuse

Have I written that he accuses me of being abusive? He says I am an abusive spouse. He tells me I abuse him. I know I’ve tried to write it, but not sure if I hit publish. There’s a lot … Continue reading

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Lies.

I was outside feeding my feral cat, Oscar, this morning. He’s a cutie for sure. I’ve been working on him daily since he showed up in April. He remains as feral as he can be though. He has finally allowed … Continue reading

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Apology – my rant

I think I figured out how to repost… I’ve never done it ūüė¨ But Tearing at the Fabric wrote a post that got me thinking as she always does ūüíě I’ve thought about this a lot. I wouldn’t mind an … Continue reading

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