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I often think…

…What if he had chosen her? Sometimes I find myself daydreaming. I know many that I follow are in that boat. Their partner left for the other person. The side piece. The homewrecker. But that is not my story. Mine … Continue reading

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Stupid condoms. ūü§¨

I clearly seem to have lost complete control over myself at this point. I’m not thinking, I’m not thinking past doing dumb shit and knowing there will be consequences. Maybe it’s mercury retrograde. Maybe it is. Maybe I’m insane. Maybe … Continue reading

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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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Shattered

I read a blog post recently that was deep. Her style of writing is unique and so heartfelt you can feel it in your chest. She wrote something a few weeks ago that just left me stunned for several minutes. … Continue reading

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Quiet.

I feel like I’ve stepped back in my life. That probably doesn’t make sense… how do I describe it… more like I’ve stepped backwards, or to the side and am just observing. I got some satisfying revenge on the OW … Continue reading

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He wrote a song for her.

I needed to find something in his studio. There was a stack of notebooks I was looking for and one in particular I needed. I wasn’t affair digging, I also don’t know why I feel guilty and feel the need … Continue reading

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Random thoughts.

I think I’ve given up on the notebook. The whole thing pisses me off. I have no respect for him any longer. I could have… I truly think I could have had he been honest and open from the start. … Continue reading

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All over the place.

Yeah, my head is all over the place. I hate Valentine’s Day. Hate it even more now. One of the questions I asked him recently, only in the book, was about Valentine’s Day. I’ve asked many times. He admitted at … Continue reading

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The notebook.

I went and looked for it in his office 2 days ago. I couldn’t find it. I wondered how I would ask him for it. I don’t think I was ready to look, I think I just wanted to see … Continue reading

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Tattoos and a notebook

He told me 3 weeks ago he was getting a tattoo. I was shocked. This man is not a fan of ink and has not ever really acknowledged that I have tattoos. Honestly, I don’t think he likes mine. I … Continue reading

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