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Stupid condoms. ūü§¨

I clearly seem to have lost complete control over myself at this point. I’m not thinking, I’m not thinking past doing dumb shit and knowing there will be consequences. Maybe it’s mercury retrograde. Maybe it is. Maybe I’m insane. Maybe … Continue reading

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It’s real.

The internal battle is real. I’m doing it again, the push away. The “other people have it worse” the “It’s fine. Everything’s fine” fake smile. But I want to scream. I want to scream. I need to just admit to … Continue reading

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Smoky mountains and the OW.

I went to see my Dad. I have not seen him in 2 1/2 years. I love being home, but I struggle being near him and in all honesty, I may share DNA with him, but he and I do … Continue reading

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Abuse

Have I written that he accuses me of being abusive? He says I am an abusive spouse. He tells me I abuse him. I know I’ve tried to write it, but not sure if I hit publish. There’s a lot … Continue reading

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I scrolled waaay back…

I’ve been here and on twitter for 4 years now. I wrote my first entry and created my twitter account on the same day. I was nervous hitting “publish” and I was nervous going on twitter anonymously. I have been … Continue reading

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Did not have my consent.

I was scrolling through My twitter feed a few weeks ago. I can’t find the tweet now, as I wanted her permission to repost it here, I also wanted to retweet it, but I don’t follow her and twitters algorithm … Continue reading

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A week

About a week has passed since I lost my shit over the random thoughts of them. After I wrote the entry, I shot off a text to him. After a while, hours actually, he answered yes. Yes, they communicated daily. … Continue reading

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Thoughts out of nowhere.

I’m ranting and raving here. Kind of going off the rails in my head. Oh, not really kinda. My train is completely off the rails. Hang on. I’m laying in bed last night, watching some dumb show about singers pairing … Continue reading

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Exit Affair

Spaghetti Sam just killed it the other day with this post Exit Affair. Not long after I started this blog, I found that there are ‘types’ of affairs. From other blogs and even our marriage counselor, he had a name … Continue reading

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On this day four years ago…

Well, it was actually the 3rd. 9/3/2015. Why do dates stick in my head like glue? He took me to see A Walk in the Woods that night. We hadn’t seen a movie together in a long time. This one … Continue reading

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