Took a bit of a break

I missed my blog and twitter family for sure, but needed a bit of a break.

I hope all had a wonderful Mother’s Day 💐

After seeing his hours logged for work, I definitely fell down a hole. Raging pissed at him, though I didn’t and haven’t said anything to him. I’m not sure how to approach it.

Then the next weekend after that, I was making our bed and right out of nowhere I was hit with a thought that led into a big old lovely trigger that sent me right over the edge that I had been teetering on.

This may be too much info, and I apologize for that. Female issues ahead! 😬

I put the last pillow on the bed and stopped myself from just beating the hell out of his nightstand with it. I wanted to punch something, I wanted to open the window and throw all his shit out. I was pissed as this thought hit me.

Yeast infection.

Stop there if you’re just not into reading this!

I watch a stupid stupid show called “seeking sister wife.” In the show, there’s a couple courting another potential wife. This one couple found one and courted her. She agreed to marry into their family. But before she could have relations with the husband, she had to do a 21 day cleanse and diet the same as the wife so their bodies and ph levels would be the same and wouldn’t pass anything on to the other to cause a yeast infection.

This stupid show I shouldnt be watching, but do any way, crosses my mind as I tuck in the corners of the sheet.

The trigger follows soon after. The anger and rage follow close behind. My breathing is erratic and I feel nauseous.

I had a yeast infection almost the entire length of their affair.

I would beat it, and two weeks later, another one came along. A month would go by and then another would hit. I was constantly at the store getting medications and went to my doctor twice. They were annoying, and I couldn’t figure out why I was getting them. I hadn’t had one since my late teens.

I thought maybe it was the increased sex he and I were having, though that had never been an issue before.

They supposedly “ended” in March that year. I got the last one around the middle of March. isn’t it interesting that I haven’t had one in over 3 years now.

Could it be because of her? He said he wore condoms….🤣🤣.

Anyway, something threw MY pH off for sure during their affair time.

Why do things like this come to me now? How come I didn’t put that together then?

So now I have to go ask the all knowing Google if this is possible. Is it possible to pass a yeast infection

It is.

It could be worse, I know…I know this… but it still sucks and I hate him a little bit.

She’s nasty.

So… this may have been too much and a little gross, but there it is.

I didn’t get emdr that week because when she asked me how my week went I unloaded on her about this.

I haven’t said anything to him. I want to, but actually don’t know how to do so.

But I got my first full session of emdr the following week. Last Wednesday.

More on that later.

(Now I’m pissed at him again.)

About Walking the Journey

I'm a wife of 22+ years, a mother of three, a sister, a friend. This is my journey on healing after an affair. I'm full of sarcasm, humor and truth. Sharing the journey after my husbands affair, I'm hoping to rid myself of the demons and get a ticket out of crazy town that I'm living in.
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9 Responses to Took a bit of a break

  1. Ainsobriety says:

    I got a severe yeast infection right at the time I found out about the affair.
    This was part of the reason I knew I could never have sex with my ex again.

  2. I’m not sure why I didn’t put that together then. I’m pissed!

  3. I had bladder infections at least 3 times a year despite he and I almost always using condoms, and he SWEARS he always used condoms with them (because you know, he had so much thoought and concern for me and my health and all… ya right).

    Bladder infections since dday? Not one.

    I’ve actually been pretty bitter about this the last couple of days myself. I wonder if he felt panicked the first time I got one; was he worried he gave me something? They’re so painful and he didn’t really show me any support or care except to remind me to “pee” after. If he felt panicked that perhaps he was hurting me, it appears he didn’t care, obviously, so I doubt he even cared at all.

    I feel you, it’s so fucking unjust that they did what they did and caused us so much damn damage while having their fun and games, and yet they still get to keep the prize (us) – but that’s OUR choice.

    Hang in there hun, you have lots and lots of love and support here xo

  4. That makes me think back, when I would tell him I got yet another one, I wonder what he was thinking. He had to know on some level!! He had to! I never got them like I did during the affair. I’m so pissed at him.

    Bladder infections are no joke 😣. Did you ever say anything to him? I’m trying to figure out how to have this conversation with him. I want him to know, but don’t want to come at him like a viper.

    I get nowhere with him when he feels that I’m attacking. 🙄

  5. Betrayed Bitch says:

    I had a bladder infection almost the whole time he was having his affair I couldn’t get rid of it!
    And after dday I realized my DR tried to tell me! My dr kept asking guestions and saying things without just coming out and saying I think your H is cheating on you! I can’t remember now what he said but he worded it very carefully and I realize now what he was getting at but I didn’t get it then because my mind didn’t think that way because I had a loyal H 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮

    • I didn’t think that way either. I was chalking it up to more sex and a surgery I was having that December. Just thought I got thrown off. But I never had them before, and haven’t after. I’m pretty sure after 25 years together at that point, my body was adjusted to his.

      Makes me wonder how the whore was doing? Was she also fucking miserable? Because I hope so.

      • Betrayed Bitch says:

        I bet she was! I found out after dday she kept going to the dr to get antibiotics for some kind of infection down there. She never shared that with me and I had no idea she had been to the dr several times our mutual friend told me that after the fact!

      • These whores are just nasty. 🤢.

      • Betrayed Bitch says:

        Yes they are and it makes me sick that my H would even go there with her nasty ass! 🤮🤮🤮🤮

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