I missed my blog and twitter family for sure, but needed a bit of a break.
I hope all had a wonderful Mother’s Day 💐
After seeing his hours logged for work, I definitely fell down a hole. Raging pissed at him, though I didn’t and haven’t said anything to him. I’m not sure how to approach it.
Then the next weekend after that, I was making our bed and right out of nowhere I was hit with a thought that led into a big old lovely trigger that sent me right over the edge that I had been teetering on.
This may be too much info, and I apologize for that. Female issues ahead! 😬
I put the last pillow on the bed and stopped myself from just beating the hell out of his nightstand with it. I wanted to punch something, I wanted to open the window and throw all his shit out. I was pissed as this thought hit me.
Stop there if you’re just not into reading this!
I watch a stupid stupid show called “seeking sister wife.” In the show, there’s a couple courting another potential wife. This one couple found one and courted her. She agreed to marry into their family. But before she could have relations with the husband, she had to do a 21 day cleanse and diet the same as the wife so their bodies and ph levels would be the same and wouldn’t pass anything on to the other to cause a yeast infection.
This stupid show I shouldnt be watching, but do any way, crosses my mind as I tuck in the corners of the sheet.
The trigger follows soon after. The anger and rage follow close behind. My breathing is erratic and I feel nauseous.
I had a yeast infection almost the entire length of their affair.
I would beat it, and two weeks later, another one came along. A month would go by and then another would hit. I was constantly at the store getting medications and went to my doctor twice. They were annoying, and I couldn’t figure out why I was getting them. I hadn’t had one since my late teens.
I thought maybe it was the increased sex he and I were having, though that had never been an issue before.
They supposedly “ended” in March that year. I got the last one around the middle of March. isn’t it interesting that I haven’t had one in over 3 years now.
Could it be because of her? He said he wore condoms….🤣🤣.
Anyway, something threw MY pH off for sure during their affair time.
Why do things like this come to me now? How come I didn’t put that together then?
So now I have to go ask the all knowing Google if this is possible. Is it possible to pass a yeast infection
It could be worse, I know…I know this… but it still sucks and I hate him a little bit.
So… this may have been too much and a little gross, but there it is.
I didn’t get emdr that week because when she asked me how my week went I unloaded on her about this.
I haven’t said anything to him. I want to, but actually don’t know how to do so.
But I got my first full session of emdr the following week. Last Wednesday.
More on that later.
(Now I’m pissed at him again.)